I feel a bit defensive announcing a 5th child. I already get enough "hands full" comments at the grocery store and the overall societal trend for less kids. I feel an immense pressure to be an amazing mom (since having 5 kids was "my" choice) while faced with the frustrating reality that I'm a greatly flawed human being.
At the same time, I feel so blessed. I live in a country where I am allowed to have as many kids as I want. I have a great husband who works hard so that we can afford all of our children (along with my frugal know-how ;) ) . I have many friends who have greatly suffered from miscarriage and infertility. After modern medicine cured my own infertility, the thought of complaining that it was easy to have a 5th seems just selfish.
I'm not looking forward to 3rd trimester or delivery (I hate surprises and there's way too many unknowns/things that can go wrong in the delivery room), but I love seeing my kids play and be friends with each other. I love babies and getting to snuggle up with them. So I'm willing to risk it another time around and pray that things continue to go smoothly!
PS: The kids are excited and happy. I always get them involved as much as possible in order to minimize any rivalry. And Pat's been happy from the get-go... although he doesn't love the pregnancy part. I lose my temper a lot more and the hormones basically turn me into a crazy lady. (It's hard to live with Crazy Lady for 9 months, poor guy).
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